For all those, as few as you are, that enjoyed or at the very least read my first posts, Thank you.
I stopped writing. Never told you all the reasons why I started. I shared some about someone I loved very much who had passed. It was my dog. Maybe some scoff or think I’m stupid, but he was always there for me. I wasn’t popular and I lacked confidence. I was never invited to parties, and in a crowd I felt alone. Puppy never let me feel alone.
I thought I had years left with him. He was 13, I should have known it was unlikely. His health declined fast. Way too fast. I spent lunches away from work holding him. Hoping he’d make a recovery. In the end, I had to put my best friend down. My felt like it physically ripped in two. Feeling has always been hard for me, but that was enough sorrow for a lifetime.
My dog was my protector. He couldn’t have actually saved me from anything, but if he was sitting with me no one could come near. There was never any doubt that he loved anyone more than me. How could you ever be so lucky to have someone love you that much. 2018 was rough because of that and so much more. So much loss, but I could have taken all the other stuff if I didn’t lose him.
It’s been over a year now. There’s still a hole. I miss you Pup Pup.
Thoughts lost in Traffic 
“It’s been over a year now. There’s still a hole.” Very true, as I’ve also lost my first best friend. It’s been many years now, but I feel sad at the remembrance of him. For two weeks, each night I cried my eyes out and thought I’d want to die too, because I felt so lonely at the time. Pets make good companions because they accept the whole you and don’t complain about your weaknesses and shortcomings. They’re very sweet and thoughtful too.
Time helped me get over the loss. But I always feel something at the remembrance him, as well as all the pet dogs and cats we’ve had that have touched my life…
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